Celadi Blog

Nights like these

2012-01-30T00:14:00.002-05:00

(Oh Dear, I'm afraid I have already SLAYED the Dragon, DEFEATED the evil queen and SAVED THE KINGDOM. But it is TRULY SPLENDID you all offered to help!)

I particularly enjoy nights like these... Great conversation about life.. What makes us tick and our goals and aspirations for the future. And that was just work. I was blessed to have work n develop a great friendship there but my time at the AIDS shelter is soon coming to an end- its bittersweet byt its the beginning of something new and that gives me hope and faith in something better. I go away with a great friendship under my belt as well.

Tonight has gone well so far.. My bus home was right there when i got to the stop - Guess I'm having a good day lol

Nights like these are a blessing and should serve as a reminder in the not so great nights that they do exist and they can exist. I feel like my fire has been gone for a while and I'm just being reawaken as of late.

Every day is a blessing and a chance to actively and aggressively pursue the dreams God has put into our hearts.

Inspiration

2012-01-18T19:23:00.001-05:00

The past few months I've been having a problem with inspiration... Feeling like theres finger prints all over my eyes clouding the vision Ive always had. Some call it writer's block but I like to call it clouded living. So where do we find inspiration?

Inspiration is never lost and never exists in a set amount of things, people and places. The lovely thing about inspiration is that we were given enough wonder to have an infinite amount of inspirations. So how come we can't find it sometimes?

THAT my friends is what cloudy living is about... When our windows and mirrors are dirty we spray them with windex so we can more accurately see outside and look at ourselves. Our insides work the SAME exact way.. we must spray windex on all the commotion n craziness that life gives us so that we can see more accurately and see ourselves better. But HOW di we do that? How do we pinpoint was is clouding our vision?

Life ends as fast as the panther can run. Notice I didn't say a cheetah or any other stronger, faster animal... That is because life creeps up on you like the panther does its prey... Late at night when no one is looking. Cheetahs attack quick and in plain sight because nothing can stop it- but life, life isnt as haughty... It is cunning and a beautiful creature to learn from. When we separate ourselves from the pettiness of certain situations and start appreciating the larger message and meaningfulness of our time THAT is when we find true inspiration.

Look back to your childhood, your wonder wasnt clouded by insecurity, fear, rage- the world was your oyster- to explore, live, dream. Play more! Create more! Want more for yourself - disregard age, society and past failures. Marvel at the cosmos, enjoy your friendships, decorate your living areas and your body, snap as many pictures as you can, free write til you tire out, do it all without fear! Focus on the now and how you can make it more beautiful, more enjoyable, more MAGICAL instead of "realistic". All that is before you was created at a time when it wasnt realistic because it didnt exist- it took just one person with an imagination, inspiration, a divine magic to bring it forth to this realm!

Happy Inspiration!
xx Celadi

Compassion

2012-01-18T02:35:00.002-05:00

I'm a fan of compassion. (I guess those Indigo Nom Nom NOms had a point) - Its the obvious answer to blame people for their inadequacies ie- self consciousness, shyness, vanity. But if you know anything about fighting you know NEVER to go for the obvious kill, its most likely a trap. People aren't born undesirable - there's something that happens in-between - something that changes the blank slate and molds it into what it becomes. Ultimately we are capable to change for the better but life is in flux... about change, and judgment stalls growth by assigning blame and shame. That something that happens in-between.. thats what we should all be in search for fighting .. not people.

xx Celadi

Reflections

2012-01-08T23:58:00.001-05:00

As we walk further away from New Year's day we tend to forget the very things we had hoped for or resolved to do for the new year. I have decided to keep them very fresh.

The new year already started amazingly yet with some heartbreak and disillusion. To which I felt God speak to my spirit and remind me why i am here. Sometimes we place all our value on relationships, things, careers, places and forget that the true purpose is to serve God to the best of our ability. Let me tell you a little story about my life

Growing up, like many young women I placed a heavy value on my relationships with men- many times sacrificing my values, my morals, my time and even my family. It wasnt until i started losing my good grades, my friendships and even my own father that i realized that it is not worth it. This cannot possibly be life, and it is not.

From very young we teach girls about prince charming - the prince that will never look at any girl the way he does you, the one who will go through every obstacle and save you from every one you encounter, the one who will take care of you to no end, who will not lie to you EVER, who will give you the best truth ever written: YOUR HAPPILY EVER AFTER. I went on through my life believing such a perfect being existed out there for me only to be disappointed, time after time. But lile any fairytale with a dramatic start there must be an equally if not even more happy ending... And it does... That prince... His name is Christ!

2011-12-31T17:27:00.001-05:00

As we come across a New Year filled with new expectations and promise of hope I hope you guys take the chance to reflect on what 2011 meant for you and what changes need to be done for 2012 to be even better

Essentially that is the most important part of that calendar change, to finally sit down with it all and realize the total of things that happened or failed to happen in the year.

For me 2011 meant some heartbreak but in the same way it meant finding the perfect person for who I am today. Definitely an upgrade of sorts - and I hope that you all who are going through relationship trouble realize that there IS a rainbow after that storm and that things normally go sour so that you can find something waaaay sweeter out there ;)

2011 meant a lot of family time and appreciated time with everyone I love, and I thank 2011 for protecting my entire family from any major illness or harm. My great grandma passed on shortly after 2011 rang in but she was pretty old and ready for the next life. I wish for 2012 to bring a lot more family time and growth & especially a lot of harmony and love.

2011 meant a lot of work - it meant changing jobs, from one that wasn't working for me to one that I love and have met amazing people at. One where I am helping people with AIDS and changing my own stereotypes and mentalities about peoples of all walks of life.

2011 meant a lot of learning about the music industry- i realized that things can get pretty ugly and that people can be very negative - we have to rise up against all the naysayers and be who we want to be because only WE know what we are capable of.

But MOST importantly I learned that my most important relationship is mine with God. He has always been there for me regardless of what I have done and that is the definition of unconditional love -something that comes very hard to people of this world. Holding on to him I know I'll reach places I could've never dream up for myself - AND YOU CAN TOO!

HAPPY NEW YEARS!!!

Merry Christmas

2011-12-25T12:57:00.000-05:00

Christmas is about wonder, imagination, generosity, LOVE. Many ppl have lost their sense of wonder. Christmas isnt about the historical accuracy of a date- its about recuperating that lost sense of wonder & use it to love freely, give freely, live freely with the gift God has given us. It comes at the end of the year for a reason- to remind u its not too late to get that sense of wonder- & your faith back! "But Jesus said, 'Let the children come to me. Don't stop them! For the Kingdom of Heaven belongs to those who are like these children.'" (Matthew 19:14 NLT)

2011-12-02T21:23:00.001-05:00

One of my clients says to me "u see its times (sick) like these i need my mommy but shes dead..used to never get sick til The Virus u kno..." We had an hour+ long convo about her life. These kind of convos are so meaningful to me. This is the reason I tell ppl go out there, give service to AIDS survivors, the poor, sick. Not enough ppl care... Statuses discussions n money can only do so much. Go out in the field - i guarantee u wont regret it. I have this theory that High School students should be mandated to do community service all 4 yrs for AIDS, extreme poverty or dom violence. More service humbles u and puts ALL things into perspective. If more ppl did more service not only could we change the world but we could change ourselves..

SPECIAL VIDEO ;)

2011-11-30T00:23:00.002-05:00

Let Go and Let God

2011-11-27T03:16:00.000-05:00

We hear this saying a lot... EVERYONE says it.. and everyone reminds us of it - but do we follow it?

Its hard to just let God do his thing because we live in a society that has told us we always need to be in control, we always need instant gratification and we are independent above all else. But the truth is that we are interdependent at most... and very dependent on God. My faith has always kept me afloat, no matter how sad it is the last little flicker of hope. Sometimes its a small hope that keeps me up enough to go to work or up enough to not give up although I'm moody and crying and just plain upset- but it keeps me up and running.

God understands sometimes we get overwhelmed and sometimes we just can't put on a good face for the world but ALL he asks is for you to keep your faith all throughout this craziness called life. Thats all you need, Faith. God tells us that we might have to let go sometimes when all that we do doesnt help the situation or when all our attempts have failed He tells us that there IS hope. God makes the impossible happen just believe in him and put all of your faith in him. Its a hard thing to do right?! specially since you can't see him and you can't see him working behind the scenes but he IS. Just like any big movie production, music production, every student and every president there are hundreds if not thousands of people that made those things happen or those people succeed - you just dont see them. But this does not mean that those things don't exist and just like in your own life - just because you can't see Him working, doesn't mean He isn't working behind the scenes to make it happen for you.

God is a very loving god, He understands we all go through things but these things are there to give you a greater understanding about life and to help you reach new levels you have never even thought up for yourself.

9/11 - 10th anniversary REMEMBER

2011-09-11T12:35:00.001-04:00

Many will remember this day -forever. All our lives changed here in New York
Some for the better, some for the worse

Sometimes talking about the numbers and the history and reminiscing on those moments hurts deeply so I won't write this blog in that fashion - I'll let others do that

In the words of my friend James S. Frier: Friends, if you find yourself compelled to indulge in conspiracy theories regarding 9/11, that is your prerogative. However, you should realize that your timing is tasteless and will be noted by many. This should be a solemn time to remember the men, women, and children--our neighbors--who were lost. It is not the time for you to "impress" everyone with your commentary.

I couldn't go through this day without reminding you guys that LOVE is a much greater force than hate. Take the time to love someone today - it'll be THE BIGGEST and BEST way to commemorate those who lost their lives and those deeply moved by the tragedy. That at the end of the day no matter how much hate has been used to scare us - we STAND strong! In Love!

Thank you from the bottom of my heart to NYPD, FDNY, Those who were affected by 911, The men & women fighting this war for 10 years strong those alive and those who have passed on

May God Bless you and May God Bless America
Your Celadi
xoxo.

Joy

2011-08-23T00:55:00.002-04:00

Then he said to them, "I can guarantee this truth: Unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Matthew 18:3 (GWT)

Joy is something that we experience from birth, a gift from God. Its one of the first, most recognizable, universal and most beautiful emotions that you can see on a child's face... something that as we grow up we may gain more of or lose.

You are BORN with the ability to have joy. NEVER tie your joy to someone else or believe that someone else's joy is dependent upon you - its TOO much of a responsibility and may hinder your growth. Falling in love is a beautiful thing but you must love yourself before you can love somebody else - and this means separating yourself from negativity even when it is hard. This means truly caring for yourself to do what scares you in the name of positivity and growth. This is what moving on IS - its about loving yourself and finding the place where love and growth are possible.

Joy is something that shines a light even in the darkness of hard times. Sometimes we must separate ourselves from people that keep you away from your joy, people that keep you away from your goals and your dreams - and that is fine! Relationships, jobs and situations that don't bring you joy need to be taken out of your life - You may cause someone temporary pain or be a little broke for a while or perhaps have an uncertain future but it is a MUST, you are in charge of your own destiny as well as your own happiness. I used to have trouble forgiving myself for leaving a job that "looked good on paper" or leaving someone who "needed me" (silly girl!) Let go! God will help you with step 2!

Throughout our relationships we will grow - some people are there for a season, some people are there for a lifetime. It is YOUR duty to figure out who's who and not feel guilty when a season has passed. We have relationships with people, places and things - and sometimes its that time to let go. Listen to your heart and propel yourself in the right direction - Fear is something that only keeps you back from that step 2 and that outcome that will bring you more joy than you could ever imagine. (Believe me - as a gal who's been through SO many changes the next outcome has ALWAYS been better for me!!)

TAKE THAT STEP! BIGGER & BETTER THINGS ARE WAITING FOR YOU TO!

With that, brothers and sisters, I must say goodbye. Make sure that you improve. Accept my encouragement. Share the same attitude and live in peace. The God of love and peace will be with you.

2 Corinthians 13:11 (GWT)

Changes & Love

-Celadi

Silence

2011-08-04T23:43:00.001-04:00

SILENCE.

We all have to find a quiet place within ourselves to rest. Not a physical place but a place away from worries, away from futures, away from everything that moves us and find some stillness. When I was younger I went through something that has kept me from learning how to swim, a little boy tried to drown me when I was just but 4 years old. Ever since this violent experience I have been slightly afraid of the water, I couldn't even float. Until recently. On a trip to Jamaica, I was hanging out on the beach and saw how effortlessly my little sister could swim and how many others would go in the water and come out safe. I decided I would learn SOMETHING on that trip, even if it killed me. I tried floating but would sink every time... I would over-think it and push on one random area of my body or hesitate thinking I would drown. Finally I looked up to the sky, relaxed my body and naturally let my body be pushed up. The simplest thing, floating- a joke to many because of my age and my inability... was THE most exhilarating and soothing thing I did on that trip. The water gently and ever so slightly covered my ears and my body - drowning out the sound as I looked up to a brilliant blue sky moving about me ever so gently ... effortlessly.. just as my body was floating. My heart and my mind entered silence... God's peace... and I finally learned how to float in more ways than one.

Floating on the crystalline waters that is God's peace. Don't try to find silence and peace on your own... stop hesitating and pushing on random parts... let your life be naturally pushed up. Sometimes our futures weigh heavy on us and stress us, or our family drama overwhelms, unemployment threatens us, relationships pain our hearts and the world seems as if its tipping over the edge of the universe. That is when we need silence the most.

Silence has served its purpose to pull me away from anger, away from resentment, away from all the negative and nastiness that made me into a different person - and finally return me to ME. Its a beautiful place to visit... the weather is always great - not too hot and not too cold... the trees are always fruitful... the grass is always its greenest... the melody never gets old ... In silence everything is always new... given new life... new air is breathed into the existence of a new person.

In silence you can see all the tiny miracles that have produced your life until now. Regardless of your conscious self - whether you're timid, quiet, loud or not... you are a survivor. You have survived this long- your worries are useless fear when you need confidence for the battle. No battle has won over you... and no one ever will! No weapon formed against you shall prosper... it simply won't work!

I hadn't felt like myself in 2 years... until now. To God be the Glory

Find your Silence
-Celadi

The Human Condition

2011-06-20T09:07:00.001-04:00

We all have those times when we hoot and we holler and we suddenly find ourselves screaming at the top of our lungs:

"TREAT. ME. RIGHT. PLEASE!"

and those answers much less those actions we desperately want - never come from the people we desperately want them from.

We are all plagued by the Human condition.

This statement is a bold one but consider it for a second. As children, we navigate away from perfect love into the murky water of adulthood and hurt a few people along the way. We are plagued with becoming more Human - every year, every month, every week, day, hour, minute, and second. Becoming as great as we can in this Human condition; more physically attractive, smarter, wealthier - Our pride, fatful- in its pregnant condition - feeding off its need to not appear weak - feeding off its attempts to no be walked on by others and in this same attempt walking all over EVERYONE. Plagued by the Human Condition.

But there is a remedy, an antidote to the curse flowing through our veins, and that is God. Through his son, Jesus, God showed us that on the surface the world may be walking all over us but the final victory is OURS. Jesus had his friends, who declared unfailing love - his greatest desire for them was that that true love from God be honored. But even when faced with this light many chose to walk in the dark. Judas' kiss was a scorching brand upon our cheeks; a reminder that no matter what we do or say, there will be those who succumb to the Human Condition - it is in OUR best interest to disband from these before their sickness infects our hearts.

But I'm only Human.

That is the statement the sickness will try to infect you with, year after year. It will break all your defenses; your conscience, your heart, your free will. It will dismember all the pieces of who you are and leave you with a deficiency - a disease that will eat up all your accomplishments and goals, leaving behind a void where you no longer exist and where others will cease to exist as well.

But I'm only Human.
Don't EVER believe it - not for one second.

You are more than this Human Condition. When we are sick, we take medicine; take in Gods word. As we get sicker, weaker, and deeper into this plague - we will need a doctor, sometimes we need to pull into the emergency room- Take in Gods word. Amputations of people, places and things that are infecting the rest of you MUST BE DONE. Amputees will lose much but gain much more in return; Life.

At times it'll feel like there is no cure to this disease - proving to be fatal to ALL; no matter race gender or creed. Lose no sleep on this thought. Give yourself hope in that this time of pain is needed to build the antibodies needed to bring you out unscathed - BIGGER, STRONGER, and able to turn your back, willingly, on the big void.

You are more than meets the eye.

Celadi.

GO ON!

2011-05-29T17:43:00.000-04:00

Life is full of surprises and some of them are not so pleasant. Sometimes the people in our lives aren't having as jolly a time as we think they are.

Last night life threw me a twist I wasn't expecting, and the lessons from it are resounding.

If you ever feel like you can't go on, GO ON ANYWAY
If you ever feel like life is too much and your problems wont go away, GO ON ANYWAY they will go away, God will make sure they do!
If you ever feel like you have nothing to look forward to, GO ON ANYWAY because although you might not look forward to anything NOW something will make your life more beautiful very soon

Life is like a rollercoaster or like a movie or like ANYTHING - there are bad parts but there are also VERY beautiful and great parts. You need to hold on because the great things are just waiting for the bad things to pass so that they can go on and knock on your door, don't leave those great things waiting for you!

Sometimes we feel like we don't fit in, or like we have no one that cares or anything to do or any friends BUT GUESS WHAT! all those negative people are coming out of your life to make room for the more amazing ones, the ones that will hold you down NO MATTER WHAT! The ones that will love you and be there for you even at your ugliest moments.

This is your moment... we are the only planet in our galaxy that has life in the way that we do.. Life on earth is VERY specific down to the # of degrees the earth is tilted to our atmosphere and weather, to the type of sun we have and our distance to it, to your # of chromosomes and genes - Mathematically it is IMPOSSIBLE that any of it happened by accident. God made everything ON PURPOSE. You were chosen to be in this planet in this time and day for a reason! SEIZE THE MOMENT! Life is waiting for you because you are so special! Know that every event in your life is accounted for, God wants you to learn from the hardships so that you can get to your dreams!

I Love You!
xoxo Celadi

Our deepest fear

2011-05-25T02:00:00.002-04:00

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

OMAIGAH!

2011-05-20T09:53:00.000-04:00

OMAIGAHHHHHHHHHH!!

My beautiful fans, subscribers, passers-by, EVERYONE!
WHERE OH WHERE HAVE I BEEN!

WOW. I've been all over the place with work & school but I've finished my semester strong and have been loving work ... making my 3rd month there pretty soon. SO glad that I've helped so many of my independent women get up from domestic violence and start their life anew. If you'd like any info on volunteering for this cause very close to my heart please visit SafeHorizon.org !

Many of yall have been asking me about my journey and how all this fits into it, and I tell you its made me become more sensitive to different people - more patience, more empathetic, more giving as well as more forgiving. A lot of people lash out or become nasty bc of their circumstance, we have to be bigger people and be the light in their dark tunnels no matter how much the craziness of the world may anger us or try to control us we have to take the reigns of life and say NO I'm not gonna be angry, NO I'm not gonna be apathetic, NO I'm not gonna sit around and give back the nastiness I get- I'M gonna change the world and be part of the lil positivity in it... and sooner than later that positivity will GROW and change the world. Be a light for someone else today, you'll end up being a light for yourself as well!

Part of fighting is being strong enough to be a leader and do it for others as well
FIGHT ON FIGHTERS!
xoxo Celadi

ps; I have a lil treat coming for yall later this weeeekkk ;)

Trampoline

2011-04-06T12:42:00.001-04:00

Blessed is he ! I'm Alive.

I've been ill the past 2 days... and still am, just glad to be alive and able to check in with you guys.

I recently got myself something to cut the stress {job, school etc} in half...

yes a trampoline!

But ended up getting SICK instead. I'm guessing from one of our sick clients at work. Whatever the case may be, whatever is inside me is nasty lil thing and many tears, sweat and yucky things that shall remain nameless later... I am here updating for yall. So, many asked why I got the new touchscreen phone, well it has many uses... the fact that its so fast and has the dual cameras will aid me in the future for live shows for YOU guys ;) always have you guys in mind you know me =]

new promo picture yesss^

Besides all the craziness, guess WHAT?! The date has been set, in MAY! The specific date will be announced on the next blog! so stay tuned. Fighters, Fight will be released in May... MAY! I recently finished the last track for the project and have a few other elements and songs to tweak before the big release. I'm very excited about FF, and I know you guys will receive it well as well. I poured my heart into it and just the methods and way it was created is so dear to my heart, so PUNK in every aspect {although that is not the genre of the actual music} You'll just have to see for yourselves now ;)

Sickness, Trampolines & Resolve

xoxo Celadi ;)

Needz Hugz

2011-03-28T23:27:00.002-04:00

WHERE have I been?

Well I started a new job helping victims of domestic violence, which I am very proud of and really believe in and which I needed to fund my many adventures, a double wammy huh! Its been a tough 2 weeks - after working on Fighters Fight for so long and so diligently I now have another project [work] to work on as well as being a full time student... It gets taxing. But with YOUR love and support as well as family and friends its been a lil better than expected. Thank you SO much from the bottom of my little thumper <3

{GOSH I LOVE YALL SOOO MUCH & I miss yall sooo much, I definitely want to put out more of my material and just interact with you guys- its what i miss the mosttttt - just making yall laugh and laughing with yall. You make it all worth while.}

The release date on Fighters Fight has been pushed back, I will update you guys as to the official date as soon as I get that information so please stay tuned. I will also try to film a few things here n there for you guys so subscribe to my youtube channel and you'll get all of that http://www.youtube.com/ojoscafe189

I recently got my new fone as well so I'll be in better contact in terms of your emails, comments, social networks etc so keep sending them!

{I caved in -- i too have been bit by the touchscreen bug... I'll explain why in the next blog LOL}

ALSO!
Tomorrow is Britney's release of Femme Fatale I'm def looking forward to that, how many Britney fans in the house? I def make an event of every one of her album releases... i know TOTAL DORK! If yall do too gimme a woot wooot LOL

much love
Your Britney Stan,
Celadi xoxo

KEEP GOING & going & going & going

2011-03-09T23:23:00.000-05:00

Sure I have pictures like this and all that cutesy jazz but

Some of my best times are spent like THIS ^ Goofing off and being a spazz. That's who I am, that loon right there in the mustache and beard. And I LOVE ME!

GOD BLESS YALL! I feel like I'm fulfilling God's desires for me and it feels amazing. I have been through so much in the past year, heck.. in all my life but God has always been my constant. And while the road is long, I trust I know and trust in what is for me. I hope you guys keep that same positive energy in your life, DONT i repeat DONT DONT DONT compare yourself to anybody. Sometimes you may need the positive feedback from others, and it does feel amazing - trust me I LOVE and am addicted to my fans and my viewers but you have to know you and be comfortable in you and your achievements, your contributions. When you open yourself to letting others judge how worthy you are, when you give people that authority to dictate who you are and how "good" or "bad" something you make is -then you lose that uniqueness, you lose YOU and you hand it over to others for judgement. The only judge is God and yourself. You have something creative to give the world, a service, a word, ANYTHING - GO AHEAD and DO IT. Rules that exist today were created by people that believed in themselves and passed on that courage to others. DONT BE AFRAID to create your own rules, to be avant-guarde, to pave a way that has never existed before. The future will thank you, I assure you this. But most importantly YOU will thank yourself for having the courage to KNOW how good you and your contributions are and growing in who you are. Write your poetry although it may not rhyme, draw your picture although outside the lines, tell your stories although long, go ahead and sing that pitchy song. When you want something and when you believe in something - it WILL manifest to the best of your ability. And the best of your ability is beautiful, no matter what ANYONE has to say. Keep going and going and going and going until you can't give anymore, your wildest dreams are waiting for you to open your eyes, wake up and make them come true!!

Sometimes you have to make fun of yourself, some of my best times are acting a fool like in the video above...

Mustaches & Courage
xo Celadi

Your Time

2011-03-07T20:18:00.000-05:00

Pictures, videos, statuses and blogs tend to capture periods of time in the same way a mirror does. You see what you can, physically, but you can't ever duplicate what is felt. Memories distorted by time, by our own psyches to protect us from hurt whether they are exaggerated to produce more pleasure or completely forgotten to eliminate the chance of hurt. That is why there is no better time than now. God is plentiful and there is so much for each and every one of us... don't be fooled into believing you are in competition with anyone other than yourself. The world is full of amazingness for everyone and then some, have faith. This is YOUR TIME and all you really have is now. Any memory of now will somehow be distorted so live it as best as you can- for memories are an entirely different pleasure to what is lived and felt, don't let foolishness like competition with others sully that because then your nows and tomorrows become somebody elses.

There is nothing worse than asking for help [needing it] and being refused that help. When asking for friendship, for camaraderie and to be denied. Sometimes on the road to some place special you realize that a great amount of people are on a path of bitterness that you do not want to travel down. There are individuals who want to milk you, use you and abuse you then toss you. Life will hit you and pound you til you decide to hit back. There are those with the power to help you who will not offer it or refuse your requests. On this road there have been many who have feigned partnerships, who have refused to help, who have laughed and ridiculed or who have remained silent. All of this can hurt deeply, But it does help build tough skin as well as tough shoulders so that when somebody needs your shoulder its tough enough to withstand. I will never deny my help & camaraderie to yall my fighters, always here for yall forever and always.

tough shoulders & friendship
Celadi

Old faithful & Welcome on the Road to "Fighters, Fight"

2011-03-06T18:13:00.000-05:00

So I just got old faithful back after leaving him behind last night by mistake. Have you ever had a phone that you build a relationship with? For me its Old faithful here, my blackberry curve from yesteryear that's not even connected at the moment... but is the best for on-the-road writing. Took a classic leave of absence from the world for artistic purposes. Everyone is obsessed with these touchscreen phones but I just can't... my clumsy large fingers won't allow it qwerty keyboards just work better [&I will be purchasing a new BB or connecting my old one soon]... my opinion, SUCK IT :-P

GWAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII! *puts arms up awkwardly and does a touchdown dance*

WELCOME ON THE ROAD WITH ME TO 'FIGHTERS, FIGHT'

'Fighters, Fight' is my first music project to go public, I debuted "Tomorrows Never Come" a few days ago and I got the most incredible feedback - some of which moved me to tears. Goes to show that life's experiences are truly not in vain if I can share and have other connect to it. A lot of you want to know the background on "Tomorrows Never Come" perhaps I should do the next blog post on it?

Clumsy fingers, Old relics & Fight
xo Celadi

2011-03-05T00:17:00.000-05:00

Well-endowed

You have to do what God intends for you and what better way to know what God intends for you than by the talents you were endowed with, cultivate that and really make it work its all there for a reason.

xoxo
Talent & Blessings
Celadi